vent

since it seems im unable to express myself unless im writing it down i had to log back in and post this, for personal reasons. for my own therapeutic remedy.

those who have been wondering. the-slacktivist isnt dead. simply in its cocoon.

that being said, i vent.


it hit me the other day what one of my greatest flaws is, and that is my naivety. i seem to expect of everyone else what id expect of myself, or at least that they will treat me how i expect they would want to be treated. i live by the golden rule. i try my best to keep my name clean with the ways of karma but... then it strikes me: people are wrapped up in their own realities. im guilty of this too. which is why its like me to believe the actions of others are direct reflections of my own actions, that the people in my life are projections of my consciousness here to teach me lessons in life and guide me as i try my best to share my sight of reality with the rest of the world. but in REALITY reality, everybody is on their own agenda.  they do unto others how they see fit and it has nothing to do with you most of the time. thats just that persons life colliding with yours in that moment. whether they coincidentally teach you something, or you grow from the bond, or even if you build a lasting relationship, thats all a matter beyond the control of both parties. thats just life doing its job.

i think thats what it is in most cases. peoples lives collide with each other and you stand there bumping heads until you two agree to move forward together, or until one gets tired of bumping the other and drives off, leaving the other hanging. if the timing isnt right it doesnt matter what the potential of your relationship could have been because its not convenient for them yet. maybe if they bump into you again when things work better for them then you'll maybe get to tap into that potential but in most cases, thats not going to happen.

and then you're left in a wreck of wasted potential wondering what you could have done earlier to prevent it and you realize theres nothing. you were fucked the moment you collided with them.

idk if i make any sense and i have thousands of more words to say on the matter but i wont.

#returnoftheslack #staytuned