Is blood thicker than water ?

In a perfect world, mommy and daddy are there for their babies through thick and thin. Through the growth of their child, mommy and daddy support & advise their kids in order to make things easier for them. But I don't think I even have to say that the world we live in is far from perfect. You can't have everything ; there's always something stopping life from being perfect. That's just the way the universe was set up in order to keep balance. We live in a world where there cannot be good without evil, because without evil, what is good at all ? Anyway, I'm afraid I've gotten a bit off topic. Let's get back to the subject at hand. What is family? Essentially, a family is a group of people connected by blood. This is what would seperate a family from any other random grouping of people, per say. And I, just like you I am sure, have heard the phrase "blood is thicker than water" more times than I could count. However as I got older I began to realize my connotation for the phrase was slightly different than everyone else's. I don't want to sound naive or ungrateful, but there comes a point when someone has had enough bullshit & they just want answers. If blood is thicker than water it makes sense that I'm drowning in it , unable to reach a satisfaction with my life because of the family that is supposed to build me up but instead is pulling me down. I feel heavy, slow, drained, the blood soaking my clothes so thick I cannot wade through it.... Blood is thicker than water. As my ankles get stuck in dark red warm liquid I feel it crawling up my leg slowly until finally I'm chin deep & unable to move. Blood is thicker than water. But then I remember the balance in life. Blood is thicker than water; I grow stronger trying to push through it. My tender muscles tighten as I push through with determination. A stronger sense of focus & motivation, to see past the blood, to find a way to make my way to the top of the ladder without the weight added onto me from this thick, red blood slowing me down. Blood is thicker than water. I ask God for the strength & he listens. Is it a test? Or is it just life? The good times and the love that inevitably is and always will be there has to come with a price right? If everything else in life comes with a price or a sacrifice of some sort why would family be excepted from this universal law? Because blood is thicker than water, right? Maybe I am analyzing the phrase wrong, but from my perspective blood has slowed me down for so long I wouldn't mind taking a shower in some warm water at this point, rinse it all off of me. The connection between a family can be a strong and beautiful thing but unfortunately there is a weak and ugly side to everything that is strong & holds beauty , family being of no exception. Although I may be drowning in blood that is indeed thicker than water there will come a day when the strength I gained pushing past it pays off & I am able to thank them. This post is vague, I will spare you the details of my personal life. But before you go assuming that just because a person is family means that they are a positive person to have around you, try to remember this post. Interpret it how you will.