Fragments (short story)

With a limp I staggered down the railroad track. The frieght train remains were growing larger and closer with every step. Glass pierced the bottom of my foot, but I tried not to pay attention to it, not just yet. I had a few steps to go before I reached the remains of the train that were ahead of me. In my memory, I recalled the day that I read about a train crash outside the city, and I remembered then that you were leaving. You wanted to take me. I told you that I did not want to leave, that I wanted to watch the fire that we started burn. I wanted to see the destruction for myself. I wanted to witness the suffering so that I may finally find bliss. You did not understand me anymore. You wanted to go. So I let you. Then, I read about a train crash and found out it was yours. That was 8 months ago. I am running, running away from home. The mess we made grew and I could no longer control it. They wanted revenge over the things that we did. My feet were warm from beating against a combination of grass and gravel as I ran on streets, sidewalks, and fields. Closely I was followed by the demons seeking revenge for our sins. I did not know what to do or where to go. I just needed to find you. You were the only person able to control me. They were beginning to overpower me. The world was off-balance. My lungs pumped heavily in desperate attempts for air while the light flickered. I needed you before they got me. I ran in attempt at finding you. However I knew it was in vain. I knew that what they meant by "I'm sorry for your loss" was that you were gone. You were not lost , you were gone. Now I had to deal with hell rising beneath me with the addition of its new angel, the demons amongst the land of the physical, and an uncomfortable connection with an evil force. I needed to find you, but I knew I would not. I could not. I collapsed on the dusty, ash covered floor of one of the empty, scattered freight train cars. I rolled on my back to adjust my injured foot and look at the ceiling. I felt the remainder of my energy leave my body as my eyes closed slowly. I was determined to find you. My body shook, cold in the nighttime autumn air. I laid back. My eyes rolled back before they shut completely. I would find you.